A memory. February 2016. Walking the
streets of Salford through skewering winter
rain, on a hopeless errand. I’m listening
to music. Something by Radiohead –
a plodding acoustic strum rhymes with my steps.
That’s not me
Two pharmacies already, turned away from both,
like an addict trying their luck. But this isn’t for me.
It’s for my Dad – something to help him sleep while his
body slowly drowns him.
The song sighs into the chorus.
I’m not here. This isn’t happening.
Walking, walking. Keep going. The next shop has to
have it. It has to. Up the hill, past high concrete walls.
Past the women’s centre with its steel grills. Past
the shops. I used to walk here with him sometimes.
Sweeping electronic crying fills my head.
The moment’s already passed.
The rain doesn’t stop. I already know
what they’re going to say.
